| Feb. 5th, 2007 @ 12:28 am Awesome cool fun |
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Ew, I feel so many different kinds of crap. I don't appreciate Bryce enough. And I don't know how to do so more. I try to make him happy and do what he wants. When he texted last night I just said 'what can I do?', not 'yeah well, i feel pretty crap too'. I try hard but in the end I still feel shitty. I don't feel needed. I'm kinda just there. Esp when we're apart. I spend lots of time wonering what he's doing, how he's feeling, if he's doing the same about me. And when at 11.30pm he still hasn't texted so I give in and ask how he's doing, what he's up to he tells me about a game he's been battling, then wonders if its school getting me down. I don't mean to complain and become even more unattractive but what else to do.
And now he's going to this girl's house for a party who has a bit of a thing for him and asked if he wanted to stay the night and to bring his togs. Awesome cool fun. |
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